And the ghosts

On the sunny side of the street: I WROTE THINGS.

X/1999: one fic and a lot of feelings

This was my assignment for the Grief/Mourning exchange (my first one). I reread the whole series to write it and discovered myself a ship on the way, so this was delightful.
But I had forgotten A LOT about the series and most notably, the whole "should we let the planet or the humans die" debate rings a lot different than it did 10 or so years ago when I read it for the first time. Especially in the current climate (ha!). I did never have much hope in humanity but it has definitely been lost in the last few years.
On another note, I realized around the fourth reread of the last volumes that Seishirou anticipated that Subaru will lose his need to live after he died, and that's why he planned the eye thing. Even in death, he's still controlling him. (I love/hate this ship).

The fic itself is Kamui/Subaru and can be found here).
No warnings besides being written for a grief/mourning exchange. Don't expect fluff.
(Also I did forget while writing that Kamui actually felt Subaru's kekkai and could recognize and localize him during that last fight)

ASOIAF: a sequence of five drabbles

Written for the Multifandom Drabble Exchange.
I actually didn't reread the whole of ASOIAF for this: I knew what I wanted to write about (ie, Sansa/Margaery) and just reread the relevant chapters of the third book.
I still had to check the wiki because some of the names changed in the French translation for a reason I can't quite fathom.

I planned to write only one drabble, and then it grew and grew.
The fic: 500 words of Sansa/Margaery missing scenes.

YuGiOh: a surprise cat

So, I was not interested in the Cat Exchange (If I Fits I Fics) at first. Then I saw a pinch hit post and one of the offer generated an instant plotbunny.
I deliberated with myself for about one hour, mailed the mod, and then learned that someone else had taken the PH.
I thought "oh well I'd do it as a treat".
Then various shenanigans happened (that will be the last part of this post) and I was glad I didn't got the PH because I had only written the very intro and this was going to be a bigger thing than anticipated.
I pushed myself after receiving positive comments on that intro on a Discord comm. I pushed and pushed. And posted right before the deadline.
It's now my most popular fic of the year which I would have never expected! XD

The fic: Seto gets turned into a cat, Mokuba is very distressed by the situation, and Jounouchi helps.

Gundam Wing: do I have a thing for touch-mediated affection?

I'll probably write GW stuff for an exchange some day... but this was purely for comfort.
I wanted to do something for fan_flashworks because they had great prompts and I watched them all pass by.
And there's surprisingly little 1x2x3x4x5 fics on Ao3 (and most of them are smut-focused which is not the part I'm after) so I decided to do my part.
It got loved, which I'm very thankful and happy about.

The fic: Two ficlets about Duo getting himself tangled in the G-boys again

On the less sunny side: life update

It got sucky

I had the second crunch time of the year - three weeks this time. On top of existing depressive mood, general stress, 70h work week, during the second weekend we had an emergency situation. Not going into details, but the point is: I could have died right on the spot, and bring several people there with me. I full-on dissociated from there and it lasted a little more than 3 weeks then broke up like a fever dream.
I've never experienced this before, and as a normally very emotional person, being suddenly cut-off from feeling anything is very weird, very unsettling, very dehumanizing. I couldn't care about anything.
I carried things still. Reading fics helped, because with the most extreme of those (whump ahoy) I could feel the remnants of feelings.
I had actually read a Yami no Matsuei fic describing this a short while before, and this helped tremendously (would have not recognized it otherwise).
Writing was weird but as long as I didn't get into emotions that much, doable.

I'm through it. Yay me, I guess.

Heading into two hell weeks at work... but I still managed to post something just before.

Fandom: Gundam Wing (and wow if that doesn't make me feel old)
Pairing: 1x2
Rating: G
Length: just below 2k
Prompt: "stealing the cat is an excuse to hangout with you" (also regular 100fandoms prompt "Steal")

I don't think I really need to explain after dropping that prompt. Enjoy the silliness.

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Other interesting things I came across these days:
- This incredible Utena AMV set to Nick Cave's Red Right Hand
- This other incredible Utena AMV set to Metric's Dressed to Suppress ("we reach for the things we idolize")
- The music video for French 79's Hometown which is a whole movie

Take care!